Bravoooooooooooo :')

hmm, I'm a mess :( I messed it up, I know that I'm the blame :'( Sorry I couldn't stop complaining, regrets, hope too much, or jealous, I'm just an imperfect human.I still love you bestfriend, trust me :( I miss those sweet moment with you guys :"( I've made you guys hate me, Congratulation to me :') You guys seem so happy without me. I'm happy to see you guys happy. I always say I'm okay when I'm not. I try to smile with my red eyes after I cry over the day/night. Human beings can’t do anything by themselves. That’s why they need friends. I'm crying because you'r a jerk! Okay I'm lying. I'm crying because I love you. I really do. I really miss you, can't you see it ? I still need you :'( I know you guys hate me now. I hope one day you guys will realize how much I need you guys in my life :') I wish I have a chance to make you guys love me. There’s only been one thing I wish for  you to be happy & not cry anymore. I’m afraid that after tomorrow, you won’t be able to smile again .I'll never be perfect but you guys bring me that much closer to perfection. Thank you so much. I really appreciate that :') Please know that no matters what happens between us, I will always love you and you will always be my number one. I want you to know that I love you more than I could ever promise. Thank you for staying with me. I know that I'm not always fun to be with but just know that I'm grateful.